Inspiration

“Splat! Boom! Pow!”

It was like a page out of a comic book, only it happened in my dreams. Good thing too or else someone would have ended up in the hospital.

I am thankful for my “crazy” dreams as it has always been an outlet for my buried and hurt feelings. I work out and process a lot in my dreams, and over the years they have not only become an outlet but they have given me a sneak peek as to what is to come. My dreams are always vivid, detailed and deep in nature.

When it rains, it pours as they say. I felt like this fall has been a true test of my character. Simultaneously I was experiencing some of the most memorable and healing moments of my life and going through some equally dark times. Just as the good times needed to be celebrated, my dark times needed attention too.

In my waking state I took care of “business” and in my sleeping state I processed and healed the pain. These experiences have lead me to not only appreciate the gift of my dreams but to look at how I can intentionally dream to help others.


Fade-Out into The Dream

“Hannah, I am here to bring someone to you that you have long rejected. He has come to you many times in your dreams and even through others.”

Immediately, I knew who it was, my grandfather “Papa Bear”, who had passed away years ago. Each time Papa Bear had come to me through various sessions, meditations and dreams. I just passed as I had no interest in hearing anything he had to say. After all, on earth, he had a hard soul, whose alcoholism and hurtful words caused many people pain. I remember small glimpses of his “softness” but they were few and far between.

In my dream I watched as the essence of me negotiated with the essence of Papa Bear. It was explained to me that what I saw on earth was not who he has essentially. The parts we saw were all the broken pieces that were never healed. I asked him what he wanted with me and Papa Bear responded:

“Hannah, I am here to protect you. I have signed up for this. I will be with you for the rest of your life. I have your back; I will be behind you 100% of the time. I will protect you. You will never have to call on me, I will always be here. You just do the job you are meant to do and I will take care of the rest.”

It made sense, if there was one thing that I had always known about Papa Bear was that he had incredible strength and that is what “Papa Bear’s” do, they protect you and have boundaries.

The days before the dream my 2 pugs had been running fevers. I figured it was connected to the emotional pain I was experiencing at the time. It is amazing to watch pets try to take our own pain away. In my dream, Papa Bear proceeded to talk with my 2 dogs, he told them that they no longer needed to protect me, but merely stand next to me. Quickly both the dogs picked which side they were going to be on. Ebby picked my heart side (left) and Lilo picked my action side (right). This too made sense as Ebby was my first rescue dog and really softened my heart and Lilo is my spit fire who is always on the go and in action mode.

My grandfather then proceeded to bring in an 8 foot wolf to protect my front. I took a deep breath as this large spirit of the wolf took its place in front of me. I have never felt so protected and safe in my life.

I woke up the next morning and my dogs were not in their usual place. They both usually cuddle on my left side sleeping together. I panicked a little until I looked down and saw Ebby on my left and Lilo on my right. I took a deep breath and knew that dream had happened on so many levels. Later that day, I also realized that both the dogs were perfectly fine and their fevers were gone!

As I was putting on my make up, I was hunched over, suddenly I could feel two gentle hands on my shoulders and reposition my shoulders and get me to sit up tall. I noticed that my back felt supported and lighter. I whispered “Welcome home Papa Bear, thank you.”

Subsequently all the things that were in my way before seemed to move forward or out of my realm of responsibility. I could feel the support and the purpose in my dream. Later that day I received confirmation from a friend of mine that did a Shamanic Journey on my behalf regarding some issues I was feeling under fire with.

One of the messages was from Eagle:

“Hannah works things out in her dreams. She is learning to trust that. Her intuition is ALIVE!”

Of course the message was from Eagle; he is one of my power animals. (To learn more please read Animal Spirit Guides or Power Animals by Dr. Steven Farmer). All the messages I received were so comforting but also a confirmation of where I needed to move on my journey.

Ring, Ring.

I know that ring; it is the special ring I have set when my business partner and friend, Marlene Chapman calls me. It always makes me smile, as does she. Every time we talk there is never room for small talk, we always go straight to the point.

“Hannah, I was just thinking about your dreams and how important they are. Every time you have a dream about me, there is always a message for me. I always remember your dreams.” She was saying all of this while staring at the “Dream Healer” CD.

I gasped. Marlene did not know the process I had just been through with my grandfather in my dreams. Although yes, she is psychic and definitely the best one around! She is also the one who has taught me how to decode my dreams by using her renowned course “Spirit Signs”.

For as long as I can remember I have always had a vivid and active dream life. Over the last 5 years I have written down some of my dreams in a journal and I began to see that these were much more than just dreams.

I have done things in dreams that I would never do in real life from flying like a bird to screaming at the top of my lungs at someone who hurt my feelings in “real life”. I have acted out my life goals and aspirations and acted out my pain.

Even the “scary” dreams have purpose, probably more purpose than we know. When the dream is upsetting or scary or bad; the meanings are deeper and not as they always appear.

A friend of mine was frantic when she shot her brother in her dream. She felt terrible that she would do such a thing in her dream and carried a lot of guilt. I quickly pointed out that she had been struggling with the current relationship she had with her brother and longed for it to end. They had a chronic pattern of fighting violently with one another. She wanted the pattern of anger to stop between them.

I suggested that shooting her brother (in her dream) was symbolic that the old relationship was going to and needed to end suddenly. Sometimes these things happen abruptly and are shocking but we need to trust in the process. Sure enough they had a big fight a few days later, they did not talk for months and both were quite hurt. Six months later they reconnected and began a new relationship with each other. Things were never the same between them and it was all for the better.

So is it only in your dreams? All I know is that dreams do come true, even mine.